Light through the trees

I have just finished editing my video that explores oil painting techniques. This painting of Light through the trees made me appreciate nature’s beauty and really helped me to enjoy the process of creating something unique from a blank canvas.

Photography in Greenwich Park

I love taking pictures of nature and exploring different flowers and plants. I am not great at naming flowers but I do like to document them through photography as much as I can.

I have created this video of one of my trips to my local flower garden in the summer, it was a such a beautiful day.

Greenwich park August 2020

My Journey

Hi my name is Jackie Williams and I am an artist, teacher, designer, photographer, mother. This is my work and my world. I have been creating art for about 30 years and was a secondary school art teacher for 20 of those years. Recently I decided I needed to start looking after myself more and decided to set up my own business and create an online presence.

For those of us who did not grow up in this tech savvy era it is an uphill struggle but definitely worth it. I think it’s time I showed my work to the world (or you if you are reading this page) instead of keeping it to myself and talk about my journey as an artist.

How do you go from spending most of your time thinking, caring for and empowering others to develop your own practice again after such a long time. That is my quest at the moment, developing a better sense of myself through my work and writing about that journey as i go through it and sharing it with you my friends.

Finding myself

Have you ever sat down for a moment and wondered exactly who you are and where your life is going? I have been having that feeling for a while now. I was not sure if it was my age 47, the pandemic, or the after effects of grief that led me to this self reflection. All I know is that it was a real feeling that I couldn’t shrug off.

My life 45 to my life at 47 were very different. Not good different, bad different. At 45 both my parents were struggling with ill health, my mother with a little known disease called PSP and my father with Myeloma a form of bone cancer. I thought at the time this is awful how am I going to get through this. Well I didn’t. Both my parents lost their battles with their diseases within six weeks of each other. In those six weeks my life changed completely.

I was totally devastated and handled the shock in different ways. I cried, sobbed, cried some more. I locked myself away from my children and my husband so I could cry without them hearing. I cried in the car on my way to work. Tiny reminders would make me break down. I was lost, free falling into emotions I had never experienced before. I tried to keep going this was truly the hardest time in my life.

I tried to return to work but I was not the same person. The loss of both my parents caused a huge void of emptiness an emotional black hole.

It made me reflect on the things that I had been focusing on were they that important. Did my job as the Head of Art in an inner city comprehensive offer me peace and quiet? Everyone was really supportive but I needed to be strong, supportive and resilient at a time when I was most fragile? Yes you guessed it I struggled to cope and could see my mental health deteriorating before my eyes. I did not care anymore about the mundane things that had kept me in teaching for such a long time. I struggled to make sense of the world that I was now in. The world had not changed but I had and I couldn’t go back to it being enough anymore.

After my counselling sessions had ended I decided it was time to make a change. I knew emotionally I was in a hurricane but I could still see I needed to do something. I was not happy in my current role. I gave up leadership responsibilities along with pay and started to figure out what drives me and what I am most passionate about.